"Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more hard to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say “My tooth is aching” than to say “My heart is broken.” C.S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain When experiencing something like... Continue Reading →
The Next 24 Hours
Schedule: Thursday, September 4th 3:30AM: Wake up. Ugh. Deep cleaning shower at home with "special" soap. 4AM: Wake up Katy. Get bags ready. 4:30AM: Leave for the hospital. 5AM: Meet at the hospital and begin check in process. 7:15AM: Surgery begins. 11AM: Surgery ends. Move to Neuro-ICU for hospital recovery. Friday, September 5th 3-5PM(ish): Checkout... Continue Reading →
Impossible To Go Through Life Alone
“I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone.” - Robin Williams as Lance Clayton in World’s Greatest Dad (2009) In the wake of the tragic passing of one of American... Continue Reading →
Fear of the Unknown vs. Fearing the Inevitable
Before I was diagnosed with Chiari Malformation, the fear of not knowing the cause of my daily pain, drove me to my knees. Not knowing what was going on medically caused my fear to take control of my mind. When your mind has nothing to explain its present circumstances, things like fear, anxiety, and depression... Continue Reading →
Pain, never felt so good in my life.
Pain. The very thing we spend our whole lives avoiding or masking. We take pills to placate its effects. Watch feel good movies, read books, or listen to music to distract us from its agitation. It leads us to a place inside we don't want to go. The dark and lonely place that no one... Continue Reading →